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‘Believe’

16″ x 20″ x 1″

Mixed Media

Here is the quote:

What he mind attends to, the mind considers. What the mind considers, the mind believes. What the mind believes, the mind Eventually does.

~Unknown

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Heather

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Just playing around with some of my own art. Happy Sunday All.

Heather

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I have so much going on inside my head, truthfully. I also am still struggling with finding and making friends. Holy shit that’s a hard one.  In my day job I coach people regularly to get, find or create a social group that is outside family relationships. Family can be involved of course, the point not being to exclude but rather increase and expand. Well, I hear those words come out my mouth daily, kinda hard to otherwise ignore the message. I need to expand into the world too. I spent the last 8 years of my life isolated in my family life, kids and husband. Mostly husband and then kids. And work, don’t forget work. I painted like a mad woman through those years of literal isolation, weeks could go by and I might leave my home and family once or twice to run a quick errand. I was becoming physically slowly sicker in my body and didn’t want to admit it or deal with it. My self-esteem plummeted, my confidence shattered. My daily happiness was dependent on my husband and children…and the current painting on the easel. When it ended, I was lost. I had no one to call out too. My family of birth had all died in those dark years. I was alone, with my boys now, but still alone.

The shakedown is still happening. I am still learning to accept my life as it is. I still struggle to get out there and make it happen. With this new body that is differently abled, I still wrap myself up in my current art and the daily hum of family life and work -for -a -living ritual. Ritual is soothing, its sneaky. Years can go by with you knowing what you need to do but somehow not doing them all the same. Complacency is slavery. I am working on a master plan to reinvent myself. It may involve costumes and magic tricks. I like to dress up. I will learn to play again. To play at things and be adventurous because the change starts here. If I want more then I simply need to look forward, follow my own advice and get a freaking life already. I have a love relationship, I have my family, I have my work, I have most of my faculties still intact. Now all I need is a life out there in the wide world of people and things and places and lessons. Bring it on, I want to set it on fire just to  watch myself burn.

Message received. BAD! Kitty is not over and Never Out.

Heather

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“Happy”

16″ x 20″

oils

Sold before it could be shown.

Yipeee!

Heather

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by Jill Schrank

Well, good day to you. I am writing today, its novel to feel this word inspiration again. I have not been able to document my experience this last year. It’s all been so, well in a word, crazy. I have run the gamut from below ground to acceptance and now on to finish line of new beginnings. The act of public journalism for more than 7 years is hard to stop. In the first years it was an exhilarating experience. Blogging was new and the world was full of voyeurs willing to comment. Now a days, it’s the opposite, there are so many blogs out there that its hard to find readers and even harder to find commenters. In a way I am glad that the world may not be listening to me at this moment. I am recovering from life, I am vulnerable and unsure. I feel naked and exposed. The art is really starting to flow again and  it is feeling good and real. I have seemed to changed styles again while I was resting. Its more abstract than its ever been, but honestly, that’s how I feel these days…abstract. I feel the pull of life goes on. I feel the burden of the daily grind. I feel the clock ticking. I feel everything and sometimes I feel the center of nothing too. Dealing with a body that is in rebellion and a spirit that is flagging at times is hard work. When the art comes it comes hard and fast and very real. It’s difficult to document all that processing. I feel like a firework on the fourth of July, blown apart and beautiful.

So my confession? I know you, you are like okay, now get on with it….eh, uhm…I don’t know what I am doing. I am a drift. I am aimless and uncertain. I am in a word, exploring. Exploring the truly unknown. The adventure is a foot and I simply don’t know what I am doing anymore. Here’s to the not knowing…

Raw & radiant,

Heather

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“Let It Go” SOLD

Oils

16″ x 20″ x 1″

Let it go started with the enlightening thought, the words, the very simple words….it’s not your fault. How powerful, how healing, how simple and wonderful. We all carry something around, something that we need to let go of, so we can be free. Not everything is your fault. Are we accountable as humans? Of course, but let’s be honest, some of the things we carry…they are truly not ours. Sometimes we need not to forgive others, but sometimes we need permission to forgive ourselves. So, let it go, is about that. It’s about letting go of the blame, letting go of the things we can not control, letting go of the need to control, letting go of the self-abuse.  Let it go and be free. You are worth it, so very, very worth it. It’s not your fault.

 ”Left Behind”

20″ x 24″ x 2″

Oils

Finished sides, ready to hang, deep box canvas

Left Behind is a work about secret emotions. I am working with my emotions this year, in discovery and revelation. I am working through my experiences and letting the art heal its way through my soul and battered spirit. Abandonment is the issue in this work. Emotional, physical and financial abandonment is a burden for the people left behind. If a child deals with abandonment, they can be left behind, in social development, trust development, and the ability to bond with other humans.  Adults dealing with this issue can often find themselves wondering what is wrong with them, why are they left behind, what is the point of trying? It’s devastating and cruel. It’s a life eater. It’s a spirit crusher. This is my way of stepping away from my personal history of abandonment. It’s my promise to myself that I will not abandon those I love, they will never feel that pain from me. I will heal from my own wounds, I will,  and I will work to make the world I live in a better, brighter more beautiful and loving world.  End abandonment today, don’t be a coward in your own life or in the lives of those you love. Stay, work, trust yourselves, and hold tight to your loved ones. Don’t walk away from problems, face them. Your life will be larger and brighter, I promise. If the problems can’t be solved (and sometimes they just can’t) then work to find solutions that protect the family, in love and honesty. Be accountable. Take responsiblity. The answer is never to leave your family alone and wondering if they are loved. That can be very hard to do but folks, that is life sometimes. Embrace the Suck, and lean into to the work. Solve problems don’t run away. That, at least, is a start to ending abandonment for us all.

‘Bubbles Burst”

oils

24″ x 36″ x 2″

Finished sides , ready to hang, needs no frame

Bubbles Burst is a work over another work. It’s a reduction painting, using the underlying painting in bits and a new painting over the top. I really like the way these turn out and I love to do them. The text is from a lyric from a Pink song that I have been listening to quite a lot this year. I am a lesbian. Get over it. I don’t want to burst your bubble but Baby, I was born this way. (Thanks Lady GaGa).

I am not afraid that my higher power, my personal God, the Maker of Me was wrong in His/Her work. I came to this life with all the tools I need to do the job I was put here to do. I don’t need to develop faith in the Maker, I need to strengthen the faith I have in myself. This life, I am finding, is about learning to master the meat in my head. I have this vibrant, rich and whole inner world. In my head things work, people love and don’t leave, and the world accepts me and my family as we deserve, as we have earned by our deeds and actions. In my head the world is a beautiful place and I belong. In this reality, my bubbles are burst all the time. My parade is pissed on. My life is not acceptable, my family not acceptable, my work too provocative. Well world, I hate to burst your bubble, but I am not afraid anymore. My life and love is good. My family is strong and stable and healthy. My work is art, if it’s all easy to understand or everyone likes it…I am NOT doing my JOB. I don’t create artwork to match your curtains, I create art to compliment your life, your spirit, your wounds, your understanding, your success and your failures. I create talismans for living. I create art. I create the story, the record of a life lived…yes, lived out loud. I am Not Scared at all.

This is what happens when you leave the BAD! Kitty alone, with a box of new sharpie’s and a pair of white Croc’s.  Bwahahahahaha!

I hope you all are doing well in your worlds! I am settling into Bay City and the new studio space. The art is starting to really flow and you all should see the return of the old BAD! Kitty. New works are coming and new shows are being booked. I will be posting again on a weekly basis. I am updating the websites, and the blog. We are bringing the sexy back to BAD! Kitty and life is good again. I want to deeply thank all my patrons for their support during this long dark year in my life and to say to the world at large…Watch out BAD! Kitty is Back.

Love to you all, let us know if these new works belong to you.

Contact the artist: browntruman5@msn.com

Raw & Radiant,

Heather

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